( sara's pretty sure that leliana said something to laurel before she left — no, she's certain of it; leliana isn't the type to do something thoughtlessly and without regard for those that care about her. the text is mostly just because sara's feeling a certain type of way about the bard's departure and she kind of just needs to talk to her big sister, as difficult as it is for her to show her cards right away. )
[Leliana came by to see her. There were hugs and goodbyes and Laurel knows that she will miss her, but she also knows that Sara will probably miss her more. Comes with the benefit of knowing Sara beter than a lot of people do.]
( and she arrives in maybe even a little less time than that, knocking on laurel's door and then shoving her hands into the pockets of a leather biker jacket that she probably hasn't worn in years; maybe it's a comfort thing. she's always been bad at dealing with her feelings, so there's no need to start pretending like she's not. )
( at least that gets a small, sardonic huff of laughter out of sara as she steps inside and flops down on laurel's couch, making herself right at home. of course, laurel knows her well enough to bust out the ultimate post-breakup supplies — even if it wasn't even remotely a breakup.
Knew I came here for a reason, ( sara retorts with a small hint of a smile. she kicks off her boots and tugs her feet up onto the couch and kind of accepts that maybe she should say something that's not sarcastic.
[She picks up her own container of ice cream, commiserating but not insinuating that her pain is more than Sara's. She knew that Sara knew her best of the two of them.]
She always cared way more about other people than she cared about herself. I wanted to shake her sometimes and tell her how good of a person she is.
( there's a bittersweet smile at that as sara scoops up her respective pint and the corresponding spoon, opening it up and scraping off the excess off of the inside of the lid so she doesn't waste any of it.
but even with the ice cream, her smile seems to fade as she remembers: )
She helped me a lot — when I came back. ( from their world, sara means, an absolute bundle of grief that occasionally flares up and nearly makes her freeze in her tracks. )
Yeah, that's true, but — I dunno. You know Barry Allen?
( laurel probably knows him better than she does, all things considered. at the very least, sara can lean into the contact that her sister provides. )
Leonard was telling me about how he was here for a really long time and knew all these people here and then went home for a little while except — when he came back, he didn't remember any of it. Anyone. He didn't even know about half the stuff that happened to him in our world.
I can't imagine knowing everything about a person and then them not even remembering who you are.
[She nods because she does know Barry, and going back to being a stranger with him when she had finally started to feel like she was part of the superhero club he and Oliver had started. She also knows, however, that Barry is struggling with it just as much as the rest of them are.]
Yeah, I know. It's tough. But I guess that's the downside of places like this. You never know when someone is going to accept the representative's deal. I could have gotten here before I even knew you were alive.
[She could have come to save Tommy. She could have come here to do a lot of things.
Hell, she could have come here to save the Queen's Gambit, to find her sister's body so that her parents could have something to bury.]
I'm not saying that's what I should have done. And I'm not saying it's going to make her not knowing you when she comes back any easier - but don't forget that her coming back and remembering you is just as much on the table too.
( the mention of laurel not knowing that she was alive brings forth a fresh twinge of guilt that sara hasn't felt in years. right, she did that. survived. let everyone believe she was dead, because she thought that it was better than them knowing what she became instead. imagining laurel showing up here a little while after her and finding her sister alive and well is an unbearable thought.
sara swallows that down, though, because laurel's dishing the type of big sisterly real talk that she probably needs. for someone who's so horrible at expressing herself how she wants, she's so emotionally driven and irrational sometimes that it's nearly impossible to see the bigger picture. )
I know you're right. I'm just being kinda ridiculous. ( she looks up from the open but untouched container of ice cream in her hand finally. )
[Her eyebrows go up at that, and a small smile crosses her face. Not to say that she was shipping of her sister and Leliana but she may have been shipping her sister and Leliana.]
( said with a soft huff of laughter, as she ditches the ice cream pint altogether. apparently, all she'd really needed was to talk to her sister, no breakup foods required. )
"Je t'aime, coccinelle," ( sara recites with great drama and flourish, before adding: ) She gave me one of those bead things, you know? To go to her world, once I'm done here.
( she's just going to gently leave out the part about leliana's last-minute seduction not only because she's talking to her sister, but because sara's decidedly not proud of how easily seduced she was by leliana when she'd gone into their final meeting dead set on keeping things lowkey so it wouldn't be so hard to let her go. mission not-so-much accomplished, but at least sara's a little more okay now. )
I don't know if I even have a choice, ( she says with a hollow laugh, a small smile lingering at the corners of her mouth. sara, whether she likes to admit it or not, always finds herself in the middle of some kind of epic adventure; to be honest, she doesn't know what she'd do with herself if she wasn't always going going going. the legends might just have to deal if she skipped on over to leliana's world for a little while. )
If I gotta chop some darkspawn in half with a sword to be with my girl, then so be it.
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